TRUE LOVE

Hello there to all my followers, subscribers and world.

Yes I know it’s been a while since I have sat down and written a real blog post straight from the heart. Honestly I have just been so swamped with real life I would just love it if I could down load an app that had the capability of downloading my thoughts and musings straight from my head into WordPress. Come on now, admit it…you bloggers out there are thinking the same thing aren’t you? It would be so easy if the stuff in my head just jumped out and sorted itself out. But ok…this is real life and I guess I had better just get on with it.

So today I feel the need to visit the topic of true love. The story books and movies depict true love as so many things but I really feel it has the potential to lull us into a false sense of security that makes us naive ones (aka me) feel like the first initial feelings of love and hearts and fireworks is what we will feel everyday for the rest of our lives. Even the traditional picture of the fairy tale wedding supports this. I have to admit that I fell for this spell and have for a long time felt that if I didn’t feel this way then surely something was wrong? Who wouldn’t want that though? Love at first sight, giddy feelings of pure bliss, a husband as perfect as the midday sun…yep sure does sound wonderful.

So what has made me visit this idea of true love? Well I have been really struggling to find the balance in my relationship with my husband in that I thought it wasn’t perfect enough so therefore it needed to be fixed. But in the past week I have had an epiphany! One that mi sure many of you will respond with “well I knew that!” and yes I thing we all can say that we know this but knowing and “knowing” are two entirely different things. What is the epiphany I had? OUR RELATIONSHIP IS PERFECT BECAUSE OF OUR IMPERFECTIONS. I know simple right. Love is meant to be messy…it’s messy, disorganised, irrational, occasionally annoying, frustrating and totally imperfect. But I really do now think its meant to be that way. If all our relationships were perfect then we would never have to strive to create something special and that also means we wouldn’t grow together.

My wonderfully imperfect Mr Omni-Awesome and I had a very real and raw deep-and-meaningful the other day and it truly was one of those remember forever significant defining moments in our relationship. We talked about everything’s and were both completely honest about every aspect that had been troubling us. I expressed how pressured I felt being the main “breadwinner” in our house now when he had been that safety net, and talked about how hurt I was that I was the target for most of his family when we as a couple set some boundaries – and how attacked that made me feel when I was left to deal with it while everyone put him on a pedestal as this perfect person. He talked about how hard he had been taking the transition from being the main breadwinner, and talked about how stressed he was about decisions we had to make. We both talked about how hard it has been and the toll it has taken on us making such huge lifestyle changes from moving to setting those boundaries in our circle. We both talked about how heartbreaking and gut wrenching it is to have a beautiful baby granddaughter right in our faces and not be allowed to hug her or buy presents for her or be the wonderful grandma and grandpa we know we would be….purely because we have to protect the interests of our youngest children. And during this conversation we came to the conclusion that its okay that our relationship is messy a nod all of the above…as long as we grow through it whilst we go through it…continually moving forward not backwards or stagnant.

We have both come to the realisation that our relationship is far different to the ones we were in before, and that we are far more enlightened and aware than ever before too. Unfortunately sometimes being aware comes with a bit of heartache, sorrow and pain…but it also comes with an adventure whereby we don’t know what is around the corner but that we will work on it together with mutual respect and understanding. We did come it of this conversation with a renewed zest for the ?!/$ that needs to be done and honestly I think we may have created a monster…a monster if list makers. I returned from work last night and in front of me stood this list making monster making a mountain of lists…from groceries to what e needed to achieve in our household. Now I have twinkles in my eyes again…I love my list making monster šŸ˜‰

Here are the words from PINK!’s new song that really resonated with me this week…google and have a listen if you’re keen. (Minus the word hate or physical violence lol)

Sometimes I hate every single stupid word you say,
Sometimes I wanna slap you in your whole face.
There’s no one quite like you, you push all my buttons down,
I know life would suck without you.

At the same time I wanna hug you, I wanna wrap my hands around your neck.
You’re an ******* but I love you, and you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I’m still here, or where could I go? You’re the only love I’ve ever known, but I hate you, I really hate you, so much I think it must be…

True love true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like true love
True love, it must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

Just once try to wrap your little brain around my feelings
Just once please try no to be so mean
Repeat after me now R-O-M-A-N-C-E
Come on i’ll say it slowly (Romance)
You can do it babe

At the same time, I wanna hug you
I wanna wrap my hands around your neck
You’re an ******* but I love you
And you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I’m still here, oh where could I go
You’re the only love I’ve ever known
But I hate you
I really hate you, so much
I think it must be

True love true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like true love
True love, it must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

[Lilly Allen]
Why do you rub me up the wrong way
Why do you say the things that you say
Sometimes I wonder how we ever came to be
But without you i’m incomplete

I think it must true love true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like true love
True love, it must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you, like you
No one else can break my heart like you

What do you feel about the idea of true love, perfect love, love in general?

Everybody Be AWESOME!

TAM šŸ™‚

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7 thoughts on “TRUE LOVE

  1. Love this post Tam. There was a story about a woman who walked a long way with a yoke on her neck. On each end of the yoke was a bucket. She filled up both buckets with water and began to walk back to her house. When she got to her masters home, she was so upset because she hardly had any water left in her clay buckets. Both buckets were cracked and bled out water all the way back. She told the master how frustrated she was to have hardly any water and all her efforts and time were wasted. The master told her, “Look at what you have done for me.” She turned to look and saw on each side of the road beautiful flowers. He said, “You have allowed the road that you have journyed on to be beautiful. Without you, these flowers would have not been watered. You are like that clay pot, cracked for a purpose, to bless others around you.”
    Love that story. Thank you for your story Tam. We are cracked and beautiful or as dove chocolate says, “Fabulous and flawed.” šŸ™‚

  2. A beautiful blog post Tam. You and Mr Omni-Awesome have nailed emotional intelligence and described what tue love really is. Truly inspirational šŸ™‚

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